Nursing home talent show

This morning I open Facebook and this crazy video pops up again...made me laugh right aloud again which I am always grateful for. So, I wanted to add to make sure you rememeber to NEVER stop having fun no matter what, when, who or why. Never lose the "you" that makes you so wonderfully and fearfully made. My spirit sister Andi added the following:

"When I am old I shall wear purple and dance to MJ for my geriatric GF's :) Because I'll probably have a touch of dementia and won't care what you think of me!

For those of you who know me...I'll shall be right next to her but wearing GREEN!!!

Never lose your humor in the face of great challenge. There are so many who love you and will lift you back up to whatever you need to rise to meet. That's the laws of attraction- like folks picking up the vibes you send out and knowing what you feel and sending you love to replace the hurt or fear. Never feel alone- we are all ONE! We are all connected to one great Source and at any time, any place we can enter that stream of well being. It's always there...stick your toe in and and test the "water".

Love and light!

Another Puzzle Piece...



So, I got the job.  I am so stoked!  I needed this and I am so grateful.  I have been on a spiritual journey for some time now.  I'll be on it for the rest of my life for the record.  I have manifested and tried to have faith and PATIENCE which for me is a discipline.  I stopped the prayers that went "Dear God, I want this and that and the other thing" and they became "Source, thank you.  I know there are changes that I would like to see but in YOUR time, never mine again.  I surrender to you that I am exactly where I am supposed to be in the Universe right now" (thanks Tricia Huffman- AMAZING joyologist, Trish and Rob MacGregor and my Andi friend).  I realized that I don't know the plan and by forcing the plan disaster ensues.  I learned in the hardest of lessons, that I wish on noone, but I am grateful for the knowledge.

So, the formal offer came in yesterday and I was too happy to say yes because I knew it was right.  The job came out of nowhere and so I knew there was a force behind it that was so much higher than me.  I am finally going to dig out.  I am going to be ok financially, I am going to be ok physically, I am ensuring I am ok mentally and spiritually and now I can do the things I need/want to do in time.  I wanted to consult with Tricia Huffman who selflessly offers herself as a Joyologist to any and all...by donation in some cases just to be accessible to folks without a golden checkbook, which in this day and age is really unheard of.  I was floored by that- a struggling single mom like me could be touched by her on what I can afford- wow.  So, now, when I get on my feet I can benefit from her expertise which is SUCH a blessing.  I can also afford to pay for my soon to be 16 year old's car insurance when he gets his license which is going to be STEEP.  I just believed it would all happen.  I focused and manifested and believed that ANYTHING is possible, even for me, and, it is.

Belief is where it starts.  The firm belief that if you surrender to the stream of well being that is always available and believe in the goodness of the Universe that in time, all things will work themselves out.  I used to follow this unquestionably and then I lost my way for a time.  I was clouded by the mitote that the chaos sometimes brings and simply got lost.  I am incredibly grateful Creator didnt chalk me up to a lost cause and continued to pursue me and help me find my way again.  I am grateful to those whose hands were sent to guide me along both showing me what I should do and what I should most assuredly NOT do.  The latter I am probably the most thankful to because they are the real teachers in my humble opinion.  It is that which hurts us that leaves an indelible mark on the stream of consciousness. 

So, off we go on a new journey.  I am trying to celebrate with gracious humble gratitude and keep the snarky -bwwaaahhaa you rotten people who were mean to me and are still stuck in that hateful place lady at bay.  She's a fiesty and persistent thing.

Love

Newsworthy?

This morning I got up to several inches of the white fluffy stuff and sighed.  It's so pretty but man is it a bear when you live in the hills.  So, I'll strap on my boots and head into the wild blue in a borrowed four wheel drive to get off the dirt road I am honestly so grateful to live on.  It's a fair trade for the hiking trails just out my front door.

So, I grab some fruit and cottage cheese for breakfast and proceed to check the headlines on MSN.  I don't do much TV so checking in on MSN once daily is how I stay "connected".  I am munching away pondering whatever happened to putting baby food in glass jars and worrying about the possible effects of BPA on our littlest as I am considering when to take my plastics to the recycler in town when the headlines load.  "Quake in New Zealand Kills Dozens" followed by "107 Whales dead on New Zealand Coast".  Munching over.



 Here's what killed me though, the next flash what about Justin freaking Beiber cutting his hair followed by possibly the most horrible looking woman I have ever seen looking like she was going to vaccuum someone into her gaping mouth as she screamed at them- she's some sort of housewives nonsense.  Then, I'm pissed.   I'm actually pissed- REALLY???????  Earth mother is screaming for mercy and we're worried about the locks of some kid who still has peach fuzz???????  Whales are washed up on the beach dead and we care more about some celebrity wedding or a cat with a camera strapped to it's collar.  My God, it's here folks and we're missing it because we only hear what we want to here- it's the true dumbing down of our planet.

I did watch a movie this weekend called 2012-  I do movies sometimes and this one scared me.  It's about December NEXT YEAR when the world ends as we know it.  Talk about Synchronicity- here's the scariest one of all.  Saturday night I read a science report about the tectonic  plates shifting and the gradual movement of what we call home.  2012 is about the sudden heat up of the earth's core and an accelerated plate shift and I happened to catch it Sunday.  It also shows how only the policticians, genetically "optimum" and the super rich get a spot on the arcs that are being built.  Sound familiar- sound like us?  When that movie was over I was shaking and literally sobbing- yes I know it's fiction but I also know it's here.  Maybe not in 2012 but what else do we need?  Hurricane Katrina, Earthquake in Haiti, Extreme flooding and Typhoons in Australia, Tsunami, now even here at home the Skline Drive was on fire this week- that has never happened and it broke my heart.  The Prime Minister of New Zealand said it might be their darkest day...we are going to find out all too soon exactly what that means.

Please, let's do what we can to save ourselves before Earth mother spits us off and heals herself without us.  Even if it's just recycling your plastics, picking up garbage on your walking trails or if you can, buying a car with better emissions.  It's here folks and it's up to us to make a difference.  I'm heading to Waste Management Thursday to see if they will start a more focused recycling program here...what can you do?

Namaste

Synchronicity



Sorry it's been so long but Dad and Austin are full time jobs and I am just to thankful to be busy helping to care for daddy as he recovers!  So, off we go.

My beautiful spirit sister Andi gave me the most amazing book on the teachings of Abraham by Esther and Jerry Hicks.  It's all about the laws of attraction- sending out what you want to receive.  It teaches us how to harness our focus to bring about that which we truly desire.  One REALLY important lesson I have learned is that if we worry we attract more of it...so I'm really working on that one.  It also shows how if you focus on lack, lack of the job you want or the right relationship or whatever, you attract the LACK instead of that which you are trying to attract.  We must focus on our goal to believe it into existence NOT wish it into existence.  Powerful book I am working my way through and digesting and will share as we go.

So, being me I am also just finished the Alchemist yet again and started a book on Synchronicity. It's called "The Seven Secrets of Synchronicity" by Trish and Rob MacGregor. They are amazing authors who have penned over sixty fiction and non-fiction books and this one is truly earth shaking for me.  As you get to know me you will also know  I am not sure I am able to read just one book at a time when I get really enthusiastic about a subject.  These are so important to me and I am so excited to share.

(Cue deep breath)...SOOOOO, Carl Jung (great psychologist who studied w/Freud but branched off due to his belief in possibility and Freud's disbelief in anything he couldn't see) coined the phrase "Synchronicity".  It means purposeful coincidences such as losing something that is so important to you that you focus on it and suddenly in a seemingly impossible circumstance you find it.   One story was about Anthony Hopkins who was researching a character and the book he needed was out of print and quite rare.  He really put himself into finding a copy of the book and on his way home one day found a copy on a bench in a main train station in London mislaid by the traveller that was apparently reading it.  To make it more interesting the author of the book was ALSO looking for it.  He had lent it to this person who mislaid it in London where Hopkins picked it up and when the author arrived on the movie set months later to consult with Hopkins he mentioned that he didnt have a copy of his own book.  He also mentioned that he had put many notes in the margin and was quite perturbed at his friend for losing it at which point Hopkins produced the book with all the liner notes and said..."You mean this one"...true story.  So I am ready on and thinking how grateful I am to my mom for giving me the book for my birthday when the author's reference their daughter and how she subscribes to the Law of Attraction theory and studies the works of...you guessed it, Esther and Jerry Hicks and the Law of Abraham.  At this point I am vibrating.  Then they start giving more examples...one in particular was from a man about a performance review at work that was completely unfair and untrue. Unbeknownst to him at the time, it happened because there was another amazing opportunity for him that he didnt know about.  God as my witness it happened to me not two weeks ago and out of the blue I got a call on a job I didn't even know existed that may be an amazing opportunity for me.  In the book they said it was to wake him up to show him that he needed to do something new and prepare him for the opportunity.  I was still licking my wounds and nursing my complete shock (it's the financial industry so nothing surprises me) when the call came in...I had just said to my mom that I was so very hurt and angry about the slighting and whammo- it's because I needed to be ready to be open.  I interviewed last week, the people there I met were amazing and I felt at home the short time I was there, so if the Universe deems it mine I will be once again, grateful.

Reference after reference I kept hitting and with mouth open devoured the text, at times so excited my eyes moved faster than my brain and I had to re-read-ha!!  The strangest was the kick in the head from the Universe to get me to listen when they referenced a session Jung was having with one of his patients.  She kept dreaming of a scarab beetle. The scarab is a sacred symbol in Egypt that symbolizes rebirth and renewal.  Jung was about to tell her how it is a dream of psychological rebirth to prepare her for something knew when something kept tapping into the window behind him.  He opened it to find a beetle hitting the window, a genus they had there that was the closest to the scarab for that area.  I sat there shaking because two weeks ago when all this went down I had the craziest urge to wear my scarab bracelet from Egypt.  It was left to me when my Aunt Win passed and she acquired it on a trip there.  I didn't know when I felt I needed to have it on that it was because I am preparing for a rebirth but I knew I needed Aunt Win with me that day.  I am beyond certain I am on the right path and feeling at peace for the most part though anxious to see what change I am met with.  I also felt VERY drawn to a special journal recently that I got with some points I won at work.  I was stunned to see it on the website where we choose what we would like from the points we earn because it is hand made of recycled materials and right up my alley.  What I didn't know over a month ago when I ordered it is that the book tells me to start a Synchronicity Journal...done!!  I'm just floored, completely floored.  Still not speechless- ha!

On a side note, when I just uploaded the pic of the book I realized there is a butterfly on the cover.  As I have lost the accident weight I have kept the image of the butterfly close as a sort of totem as I go through my own metamorphosis.  I also see literally hundreds of them as I take my walks/hikes through the woods and use them as a judge to know if I should keep going.  If I see them and they dance ahead I forge ahead.  If they abruptly turn back so do I (sounds weird but I live in bear/wild dog/wildcat country).  I felt in my gut I should follow their lead but I decided to test that once and try to do what I wanted instead of following in the signs and ran head long into a roaming Rottweiler who scared the crap out of me... I diverge from course but I'm just saying...know?
So, if you have experienced Synchronicity and would like to share I would LOVE to swap stories with you.  Andi and I are also going to start clearing soon so once we get a rhythm we will share and PLEASE join us if you wish.  In the meantime, be love, be light and BELIEVE!

Love to you!

Trials and tribulations...



Smooth seas do not make skillful sailors.  ~African Proverb

Today I choose the picture of the Phoenix as inspiration to rise above the past week or so.  It has been hard and I am weary.  I cried a lot of tears but here I am, writing and grateful.

I am learning to be love in all situations and it is hard.  It is hard to be grateful when people can be so cruel.  I keep persevering however...I have fallen but at least I keep getting up.  In the "Four Agreements" by Don Miguel Ruiz he repeats many times to just keep getting up and trying because THAT is how new agreements become life as we live it.  I shed so many tears this week.  I work with some of the most hateful people on earth and that makes it very hard though I try to just offer it up (most of the time) and keep going.  It wears on me and I start getting negative so I have to keep regrouping.  To boot my dad got very ill this week so it's that much harder.

He had a cough for a few days but seemed like just a bad cold.  Wednesday night he suddenly couldn't breathe.  We got a foot of snow and he drops and goes blue-cue panic.  We called 911 and thank goodness they could get to us.  Ironically the exact same thing happened last year- same time and it was when we got almost 4 feet and the ambulance couldn't get here so I was SO grateful for less snow.  He has COPD and congestive heart failure from smoking- public service announcement from me here...if you smoke, QUIT- so he goes from ok to not breathing very, very quickly.  He's had it for a year but it's so hard to recognize and it hits very quickly and there is little warning.  What is just a cold for some turns into an emergency for him literally in minutes- it is so frightening.  This year the cold went into pneumonia in a matter of a day and caused his lungs to fill and his heart to fail.  They took 16 lbs of fluid out of his lungs so far.  Last year he fought us for two days and refused to go to the hospital.  Not knowing what it was (he hadn't been diagnosed with either at that point) we relented.  It almost killed him.  He suddenly stopped breathing on us just like this year but then went septic and wound up with MRSA.  This time he had no choice- go estrogen-lol!

So, work.  I don't get mean people.  I don't know why people want to hurt each other and make each other suffer.  I am going to keep working really, really hard on staying positive and finding something to be grateful for in each situation.  For what was done to me Thursday, I am just grateful that I am not the persons who did it to me.  I am grateful I don't have the capacity to be cruel to someone like that AND so grateful that I am learning from so many wonderful people how to let things like this go and clear.  I am trusting the Universe that I am exactly where I am supposed to be right now and I accept their black energy and send it back to the Universe as light to return to me with love.  I am strong and I story to me that I am better than the negativity. I story that I can rise above it and float on love as I will not be there much longer because this is a learning experience for my higher purpose- that this is needed for my journey.  I know I am going back to school and I am doing as Spirit wills and I am my purpose because I am worthy. 

I am grateful to those of you who read and I send you love and light and peace.  I feel so blessed to have you on this journey with me and that you care enough to walk with me on it.  Namaste

1-11-11



It's my birthday 1-11-11...cue the Beatles riff..."It is your birthday...happy birthday to you".

What a cool day to be me.  I have been playing with numbers since I realized my birthday was going to be on 1-11-11 and that I would only see that once.  I have had a blast twisting and turning the numbers to keep "proving" to my mind that the equations all equal a huge shift for me to the positive.  I wanted to share a few I came up with. 

1. 1-11-2011 adds up to 7.  This is the 7th yr in a cycle of pain and misfortune-it's ending-I feel it

2. I am 38 today and 3+8=11 which is today's date

3. My birthday equals 7 this year and mom's equals 11...her birthday is Jan 7th-mine the 11th.

4. 1-11-2012=8.  7+1=8 and it's the first year of the new cycle so rightfully it is eight.

5. On 1-11-2012 I will be 39- 3+9=12...in the year 12 which is the first year of the new cycle.

6. One of my fav musicians is born on 4-8 and that also equals 12...ok that one is random but you get the pic

Everything keeps adding up...everything.  I am so excited and so grateful to be a part of it all.  I cannot wait to see what life holds as I move through this year of transition which is already amazing.  I have to stay focused and positive and be ready for the gifts the Universe is bestowing on me already.  I am so grateful to all who have helped in this journey and so excited to share my positivity and lessons with anyone the Universe sends my way who needs them.

Namaste

A Week In



Week one...done!!  I made it and I am grateful and excited.  I manifested love, peace and positivity all week and it manifested in me.  I only got upset at work one time and for a total of maybe 5 minutes. While I was a bit disappointed in myself for letting someone get to me I decided not to look at it that way.  ONE person got me for a few minutes...the rest of the week I was patient and positive and that's HUGE!  I don't story for me that I let myself down, I story that on EVERY other call and situation I was THE BOMB!!   It's a work in progress and a discipline but I am good at both so I got this...

Now starts week two.  I am focused and studying and clearing regularly.  Cleaning my stones with sea salt to wash away any negativity and smudging.  It's year seven...a common theme for me this year and again I am just grateful.  The shift is here and this past week I lost six pounds.  I wasn't kidding; EVERYTHING is different.  So, off I go again tomorrow to keep being me.  I also decided to do things for me this year, like taking off my birthday Tuesday.  1-11-11 is only coming once in my lifetime so I'm going to celebrate it with a hike if the weather holds out.  Maybe accupuncture too...we'll see.

It's very empowering to learn you can surround yourself with an aura of positivity and to see the Universe give it back. It's a miracle really and I am grateful to Andi for teaching me to manifest and to Creator for making me with enough curiosity to try it AND giving me an open mind.  I am most grateful to all those who have hurt me so much.  You have taught me who I don't want to be and help me to clearly see the goodness in the world.   I am also grateful to those I find annoying and mean spirited who test my resolve and make me work harder at storying something loving about them to change my mindset.  You challenge me to be better and I love you for that. 

I'm doing it...yay me!

Peace